My thoughts on the President???

It has been requested of me that I speak my thoughts about our Commander-in-Chief, President Barack Hussein Obama. Well, first of all, I'm not even sure if he's doing a good or bad job actually. I do however note that he has not come through with a few of his promises. namely the one about bringing troops home. not only has he failed to bring troops home but he apparently announced at West Point Military Academy in December that he plans on deploying 30k more over the next six months. Way to go back on your word mr. president. And then the thing about him winning the Nobel peace prize? that's ridiculous! Let's be honest here, there are plenty of people who have done much more for peace than the president. What makes him so worthy of that prize that some people like Mohandas Ghandi never received!? That's an outrage! Notable Nobel Peace Prize Laureates are: Martin Luther King Jr, Mother Teresa, Desmond Tutu, and Tenzin Gyatso (14th Dalai Lama) to name a few. Are you gonna tell me that Obama did more than Ghandi? or just as much as MLK and Mother Teresa? I think being the 1st black president is really what did it. but i bet you the first hispanic president won't win the Nobel prize! but whatever. i'm not playing the race card tonight and its too late to keep rambling about the president for tonight. you might say, "ah chedgar, you're just tryin to act like you know all this stuff about politics. thats why you only mentioned two points and then bounced." but i'll be the first to admit that i do not in fact know very much about politics at all. These are just some simple stuff i noticed and could talk a little more about but, not tonight ;) gnight errbody!

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been a long time...

So i haven't written a blog in a while and... wow. i should really be cleaning right now... that was way off topic. anyways, I was reading the Bible today, and checking out different stuff about biblical contradictions and what not and so far, i haven't found anything contradictory after actually taking a few minutes to actually research the things people say. I mean, if the Bible truly does contradict itself or lies, then i should not believe in it. it's that simple. However, thus far, it hasn't contradicted itself in a single thing that people try to point out to me and honestly, i know it won't. as i have been reading it today i have just been blown away by how beautifully composed the Bible is. It's truly a work of art. It has the complexity to stimulate the brightest minds and the simplicity to be understood by all. it is truly incredible! I don't really have a reason to write a blog today but this was just so awesome that i had to write about it. um, aside from that the only thing i've got going on right now that you might care about is: 1. i'm trying to get a job, hopefully at olive garden (make the big bucks there! lol) or some place worthwile. 2. the movie i was attempting to make fell apart for the 5th or 6th time (i've lost count; i think it's cursed) but i'm going to focus on a different project. start fresh, because i got REALLY frustrated with the last one. so this new one that i've had in mind for a while is gonna be simpler as far as shooting goes and should be ready by the time our local film festival is held (expected to be in June). I have some AWESOME friends that are setting that up and help me out a lot with my projects but the new one involves children so that might be even more frustrating :P and 3. i'm also writing a script for the church i attend. the media team is getting some special effects package and they told me they wanted me to write a lil' something. they gave me a little basis for it and told me to run with it so i have the complete liberty to take it wherever i see fit and i am seriously loving it! it's gonna be sick! i'm excited. well, that's all for now. please comment on my blog(s). i want to hear your opinions on what i write. besides, it lets me know that someone beside myself actually cares about what i have to say (which according to my subscriber thingy seems to be about 5 other ppl :P)

Running Water.

Does it ever feel like the thing you want most just keeps slipping through your fingers. or am i the only one this happens to? you close every gap between your fingers and the make-shift bowl you have formed begins to fill, but somehow, the water always finds a way to escape. the smallest gap and it's gone. no matter how many times i try to grasp this, it ALWAYS escapes me. so close but so far, and so far, no cigar. time and time again i have tried to accomplish this task, expressing openly that i want this whole-heartedly. sacrificing one thing or another in order to obtain it. but something always goes wrong. it's like i have fallen in love and lost. but not with a girl. with an intangible thing. a dream. it makes me happy. i feel excited when i talk about it and i feel good while i'm working on it. but then something happens and it falls apart. then it hurts deep in my gut and it scares me. like things i have done have been in vain. like it will never work out. the people that surround me reassure me that it will be okay, that it will work out but it has happened time and time again. i can't stand it. and sometimes i doubt it.

"why does this happen to me? why does every moment have to be so hard? it's hard to believe that it's not over tonight, but just give me one more chance to make it right. " - Maroon 5

so, i guess... it's not over tonight ladies and gentlemen. here we go. one more attempt, one more chance to make it right and i'm gonna give it all i've got. this is it. this is not a rehearsal.

but good God, am i scared.

so... um...

I was thinking about my name the other day, which led me to think about Edgar Allen Poe, which led me to think about gothic literature which led me to want to write a little something of my own. My life is not very dark however and this caused a bit of a problem for me so I pulled on a little something some of you might be familiar with. I don't really mean any of this so please don't get scared (while i do want you to think it's scary) and don't think that i need help or am contemplating suicide or anything like that. Also, please don't lecture me for writing this. I do however want you to let me know if you think it's any good. again, don't take any of this seriously, i don't mean it, even when it sounds like i might. I was just using it to write. so check it:


They stand and they stare and they laugh in their minds
On their faces expressions of fear and of cries
You can tell so precisely when you look in their eyes
It's a show to them to watch you fall down on the floor
to bang your head violently up against a board
It's funny to them as the blood starts to pour
and your eyes rolling back to see inside your skull.
"How bout next time you try it as you drive?
We'll see if you crash and make it out alive."
They place bets and gamble and see who will win
and they pretend to care with their quiet chagrin.
All they want is the blood and the guts and the gore
and when mine runs out they will still beg for more.
How bout if they die? That'll even the score!
As if the pain that I feel when I fall ain't enough
the shame they throw on me makes me want to bust.
to burst out in tears and release every word
and place them in a verbal world of hurt.
Then I'll stand and I'll stare and I'll laugh in their face
as I see them there flopping in my usual place.


I became insane with long intervals of terrible sanity. - Edgar Allen Poe

Apparently Edgar Allen Poe had epilepsy too! So, that was pretty cool to find that out. Pretty sweet :P

Ya pronto!

Ya pronto voy a regresar a la tierra que amo. MEXICO! Guadalajara, Jalisco para ser mas especifico. Si Dios quiere, alli voy a estar para Navidad con mis primos, primas, tios y tias! La ultima vez que fui, me di cuenta que me estaba haciendo un poco racista contra la gente Estado-Unidence. Porque? Bueno, es que el avion en el cual andavamos viajando iva directamente a Guadalajara, y no iva a hacer ninguna parada en otro lugar (como Cabo San Lucas, o Mazatlan, o lo que sea) y me enoje! Pense "Estos gueros deberian de ir a los lugares turisticos! No pueden ir a el Mexico verdadero! Guadalajara es mio y solo mio! No voy a permitir que estos 'turistas' invadan mi tierra!" Claro, no les iva a hacer nada. Ni modo que los agarrara a golpes, pero me sentia enfurecido! En ese momento me puse a reflejar. Me estaba haciendo como los locos de la imigracion americana. En vez de enojarme porque ivan a el Mexico "verdadero", deberia de estar feliz que ivan a ver la VERDADERA belleza de Mexico, y no los lugares feos y aterrorizantes donde acostumbran ir... siempre y cuando no agarren la costumbre de ir todos a Guadalajara y vivir alli. Eso ya seria mucho. Pero les doy permiso de ir a visitar a esos gueritos :) No quiero que la gente vaya a algun lugar rascuacho por alli y juzgen a toda la nacion pensando que Mexico es un lugar feo. La verdad es que a mi me gusta muchisisimo mas andar en Mexico que estar aqui en los Estados Unidos Americanos. Con esto no quiero parecer traidor ni nada por el estilo, pero, esa es la verdad :) Abajo, inclui algunas fotos de Guadalajra para que vean un poco del hermoso lugar de donde viene mi familia! Enjoy!

Hospicio Cabañas

Arcos de Guadalajara



Plaza Galerias (like a mall)

 

Cathedral



Mural by Joze Orozco



My heart

 

About friends.

So thanksgiving came and went... once again. I give thanks for everyone and everything and yada-yada so on so forth (we all know what we're thankful for ;) but THIS thanksgiving was a little different. See, a great friend of mine came up here from So-Cal and it had been eight (ocho, huit, acht, 8!) years since i last saw him. He moved away when I was 12, enlisted in the Marines when he turned 18 and served two tours in the middle east and now has a beautiful baby girl and a wife, but the curiosity of all this is that when he came back, we started talking and hanging out and it seemed like he had never even left at all :D despite how vehemently our lives had changed, how much all of us had grown and matured, we were still just as good friends as the day he left. I think that's the proof of a real, genuine friendship. the trust that remains between friends despite the passing of distance and time. my friend came and went and i still trust that guy with my life (and thank him for fighting for it over in the middle east). I guess what i'm trying to say here... well, i'm not really trying to say anything. I just wanted to write about this. We all have friends (I hope) and as you're reading this blog, i'm sure you're thinking about that friend of yours that can leave for 100 years and when they come back, the friendship would be just as strong. I thank God for my friends, and even though we are now in December, it's never too late to do so. Make sure you give your friend a call soon to say "what's up?" because you never know when one of you might be gone for good... i guess THEN it would be too late.

oh and just for laughs, check out the following:

A New Blog!? Say "WHA!?"

say it! just kidding, you don't have to :) ... this time >:-( that's an angry face. Okay, last sunday (yesterday) our church youth group had a meeting and we developed certain administrative groups such as: activity planning, fundraising, bulletin-board care taker, etc. I became part of the activity planning crew with Jorge and Priscilla so you know we're gonna have some awesome activities! First of all, we decided to plan out a christmas banquet and gift exchange. Whether that will be a secret-santa or white elephant ordeal is yet to be determined (I wanna keep you guys in suspense), but aside from that, we are developing other ideas as well. We are going to be planning a snow trip toward the end of the year and I have been getting in contact with other churches to see where there will be other youth services because we wanna get involved in that. We also want to go to some concerts and even if we don't go to all of them, we at least would like to know about them and have them up on our bulletin board. We've been laggin on this kinda stuff for a while now as a group but we're gonna be picking up slack once again. Aside from that, we are building a sweet youth center downstairs at church. It's gonna be sick! We're gonna have like a little cafe thing going on down there, a little lounge with a couch (like the ones from drama, sara and suzy ;) and there's gonna be this wall there that WE (the youth) are gonna paint however we want and make it all colorful and tag it with our names and what not, basically pimp it out. We have a t.v. in there too that we could hook up video games to (not that us guys would, just saying that we could huh isai?) Enough of that for now though. Also on Sunday, a few of us got together and watched a movie in the Stockton Downtown Theatre. The guys watched 2012 and the girls watched... what else. twilight. I'm not even gonna comment on that. As far as 2012, i don't wanna turn this into a movie review but i will say this. If you've seen "Day After Tomorrow" then you've seen 2012. It is entertaining though, I'm not knocking it. All i'm saying is, if you have 10 extra bucks, "The Men Who Stare At Goats"might be a more enjoyable movie. At least it was for me :)

My Movie Update (for whoever cares): Still taking care of casting. Making phone calls and what not. This is getting to be really stressful but I know it will be worth it. OH! That brings up a whole 'nother topic for me to blog about but maybe later this week.

FEEL FREE TO COMMENT EVERYONE! Any suggestions for the activities crew? What about movies? Seen any lately? ... at least wish me luck with mine.

peace.