My thoughts on the President???

It has been requested of me that I speak my thoughts about our Commander-in-Chief, President Barack Hussein Obama. Well, first of all, I'm not even sure if he's doing a good or bad job actually. I do however note that he has not come through with a few of his promises. namely the one about bringing troops home. not only has he failed to bring troops home but he apparently announced at West Point Military Academy in December that he plans on deploying 30k more over the next six months. Way to go back on your word mr. president. And then the thing about him winning the Nobel peace prize? that's ridiculous! Let's be honest here, there are plenty of people who have done much more for peace than the president. What makes him so worthy of that prize that some people like Mohandas Ghandi never received!? That's an outrage! Notable Nobel Peace Prize Laureates are: Martin Luther King Jr, Mother Teresa, Desmond Tutu, and Tenzin Gyatso (14th Dalai Lama) to name a few. Are you gonna tell me that Obama did more than Ghandi? or just as much as MLK and Mother Teresa? I think being the 1st black president is really what did it. but i bet you the first hispanic president won't win the Nobel prize! but whatever. i'm not playing the race card tonight and its too late to keep rambling about the president for tonight. you might say, "ah chedgar, you're just tryin to act like you know all this stuff about politics. thats why you only mentioned two points and then bounced." but i'll be the first to admit that i do not in fact know very much about politics at all. These are just some simple stuff i noticed and could talk a little more about but, not tonight ;) gnight errbody!

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been a long time...

So i haven't written a blog in a while and... wow. i should really be cleaning right now... that was way off topic. anyways, I was reading the Bible today, and checking out different stuff about biblical contradictions and what not and so far, i haven't found anything contradictory after actually taking a few minutes to actually research the things people say. I mean, if the Bible truly does contradict itself or lies, then i should not believe in it. it's that simple. However, thus far, it hasn't contradicted itself in a single thing that people try to point out to me and honestly, i know it won't. as i have been reading it today i have just been blown away by how beautifully composed the Bible is. It's truly a work of art. It has the complexity to stimulate the brightest minds and the simplicity to be understood by all. it is truly incredible! I don't really have a reason to write a blog today but this was just so awesome that i had to write about it. um, aside from that the only thing i've got going on right now that you might care about is: 1. i'm trying to get a job, hopefully at olive garden (make the big bucks there! lol) or some place worthwile. 2. the movie i was attempting to make fell apart for the 5th or 6th time (i've lost count; i think it's cursed) but i'm going to focus on a different project. start fresh, because i got REALLY frustrated with the last one. so this new one that i've had in mind for a while is gonna be simpler as far as shooting goes and should be ready by the time our local film festival is held (expected to be in June). I have some AWESOME friends that are setting that up and help me out a lot with my projects but the new one involves children so that might be even more frustrating :P and 3. i'm also writing a script for the church i attend. the media team is getting some special effects package and they told me they wanted me to write a lil' something. they gave me a little basis for it and told me to run with it so i have the complete liberty to take it wherever i see fit and i am seriously loving it! it's gonna be sick! i'm excited. well, that's all for now. please comment on my blog(s). i want to hear your opinions on what i write. besides, it lets me know that someone beside myself actually cares about what i have to say (which according to my subscriber thingy seems to be about 5 other ppl :P)

Running Water.

Does it ever feel like the thing you want most just keeps slipping through your fingers. or am i the only one this happens to? you close every gap between your fingers and the make-shift bowl you have formed begins to fill, but somehow, the water always finds a way to escape. the smallest gap and it's gone. no matter how many times i try to grasp this, it ALWAYS escapes me. so close but so far, and so far, no cigar. time and time again i have tried to accomplish this task, expressing openly that i want this whole-heartedly. sacrificing one thing or another in order to obtain it. but something always goes wrong. it's like i have fallen in love and lost. but not with a girl. with an intangible thing. a dream. it makes me happy. i feel excited when i talk about it and i feel good while i'm working on it. but then something happens and it falls apart. then it hurts deep in my gut and it scares me. like things i have done have been in vain. like it will never work out. the people that surround me reassure me that it will be okay, that it will work out but it has happened time and time again. i can't stand it. and sometimes i doubt it.

"why does this happen to me? why does every moment have to be so hard? it's hard to believe that it's not over tonight, but just give me one more chance to make it right. " - Maroon 5

so, i guess... it's not over tonight ladies and gentlemen. here we go. one more attempt, one more chance to make it right and i'm gonna give it all i've got. this is it. this is not a rehearsal.

but good God, am i scared.